Tired, Fun, Pain ~ All In One

"Try again, fail again. Fail better." ~ Samuel Beckett

Today NAPFA test was so funny to me, cause it is my first time failing NAPFA test wahaha. Not feeling well already, too long didn't exerise? but i got all A for the test other then 2.4 which 3rd round i went to the toilet cause i cannot take the stomach ache anymore. wahaha so funny when i come to think of it.

finishing my FYP already, 2 more days will be the last day already. we meeting this SAT for Seoul Garden meal all together. Now working on my report and my both accessment will be conducted on the last day. wahaha no major problem already i believe... soon all will be over... going to Siltronic to work for IAP as programmer will see how things go about there soon when i start work on monday.

working on weekend at sentosa... look for me if you are in the area ya... see you all around.

will post again soon....

"Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself." ~ William Faulkner

"Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it." ~ Terry Pratchett

I am starting to get worn out very quickly as time goes by in thid year. I am getting very tired of the kind of thing you need to do so much better just to get a few more marks. I just wonder why do it have to be this way?

2 more days to National Day! and monday is a holiday. Yes it mean i can rest up abit more then normal time. a longer weekend. hopfully got steamboat this time during national day. wahaha i miss the times when as a family we all eat steamboat together and just enjoy laughing and smiling just for anything that we think of and come up with.

Need someone to enter my life quick and take over my emotion. I saw her and the rest with him alone at the library today. I didnt went up to say hi to them, they seem to be having alot of fun. I am sure they all will without me, i am just the devil in their heart. Nothing more then just a person they dislike.

Nitez Out...

"Man must evolve for all human conflict a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is love." ~ Martin Luther King, Jr.

Amber Pacific - If I Fall

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all
And all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away

How can I say
Say I'll be okay

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the line's been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

"Fairy tales do not tell children that dragons exist. Children already know that. Fairy tales tell children that dragons can be killed." ~ G.K. Chesterton

My Lonely Self..

Today i am going to speak more about my blog history, lets start with the blog name. It was given by a friends, Amanda. But to my request of two tag and they are lonely, sad. she thought about it for a while and given this title for the blog. I am happy for the title. But people did ask me before why didn't i change the blog URL? Because i am still lonely and sad? It is still the case my friends if you are reading this post that is. Because to me life have always been this case, looking for a person to hug and able to chat sound easy for many people. But have been really unsuccessful for me for awhile already. Haiz... is this my life for a long time or is it simply i am fated to be alone?

I always wonder, am i not doing much or i am just being too kind. I dun like to fight for things with others as i have never in my life see that there is a point to do so when you are able to get that something but return you nothing but more problem at a later time. For the past week someone have been avoiding me i believe as i haven't see her for a while already. She got quite a few gifts from her friends but she didn't want mine i believe so. I always wonder did i do the right things with her? or simply the problem is not mine? or maybe i should just get out of the issue with people caring for their friends more then being able to think more for me.

I am very tired in the class when the school reopen as you see the kind of student we are having in the class. I also am very tired of the ADC & ATC because people dun do their job, people dun care about anything, people do things life the training is their own house issue. Why should i care for all this people that dun care for others and being call insensitive by her and yet i believe the fact is more people are even more insensitive to others and no one have been sensitive to me. Am i going to say that as long as there is someone who like me i should give her the chance knowing that that is no way i will get along well with her in the relationship? when you know that you are going to break someones heart and just continue to do it? is that being sensitive? or maybe the word have a difference meaning behind it?

I am tired, I am really tired, Hoping that one day soon i would just sleep and never wake up. No need to worry about anything, No need to think about anything, No need to stress over anything.

H-TWO-O Biathlon 2009 - 18th July 2009 (2Days from now)

"No man or woman who tries to pursue an ideal in his or her own way is without enemies. ~ Daisy Bates"

Virus, Life, Everything

Today, Zhong Wen sms me about him still not feeling well as he have fever from yesterday until today. He went to see a doctor today, but luckily for him and also everyone in the class because he is fine. Alive and kicking. It makes me wonder about the H1N1 virus more and more because NYP already have a few cases of confirmed cases. But it seems that many people are still not doing much to ensure that their personal habit of keeping themselves clean and neat. But Singaporean is so because unless the the problem become a problem to them only then they will become serious about it.

Enough of the virus going around, i have yet to complete my PLC report that was overdue for 2 weeks already. But i am really tired of doing the report and report already. The class is just so competitive over results and marks, i wonder why is result and marks so important to them even to the extends that they might even slit their own peoples throat. Is life really all about paper? Is life is all about making sure that as long as you stand the tallest in the world even if you are alone it is ok? I wonder...

"Don't forget that I cannot see myself -- that my role is limited to being the one who looks in the mirror. ~ Jacques Rigaut"